March 17, 2020

Today I‘m mostly baffled by the stupidity of so many people. How can it be that people steal 50000 protective masks from a hospital? How can it be that so so many still sit packed together in street cafés? How do people not realize that this is incredibly selfish? Is this our culture these days? Where’s the humanity? Just because they’re fine right now does not mean they’re not putting everyone around them and a whole lot more people at risk. And all just for the sake of not being bored for 5 minutes of their life? At the rate this virus is spreading right now, hospitals and intensive care units will be filled to the maximum in just a couple of days. They might be empty now, but it won’t take long until we get a problem. The numbers are terrible. From roughly 2000 beginning of last week we’re already almost at 10000 right now. It might not be those who don’t care now, but others. They will put doctors into positions where they have to choose whether to help a 60 or an 80 year old person, based on statistics, because there is no capacity anymore. We need to stop this. If people do not understand, they need to be forced. They are the ones responsible for a possible curfew. And they will be the first to complain about it.

Personally this whole situation gets me more than I expected. It’s really really hard to get work done. And that’s not because family is around all day. They do their thing and they do it so great, I could not be more thankful and proud of them. It makes me feel guilty in a way, because I can only help out so much. But we decided I can’t take vacation right now because we don’t know for how long this will go on and I might need those days later.

I’m very glad I have an employer which knows how life works and that working from home these days with small children around all day is sometimes nearly impossible and lets us know that it’s fine. Some things are more important. Nevertheless I try to do as good of a job as possible and not let my peers down which on the other hand seem to be working all day long because they don’t have anything else to do at the moment. Two extremes… both need some consideration to not make one get frustrated and burned out.

Just two days in and I feel different about a lot of things in ways I really did not expect. I‘m overwhelmed and I hope I will settle in with this situation tomorrow.